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One Juror's Reckoning
with Racial Injustice

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About
the Book

The Worst Thing We've Ever Done is Carol Menaker's intimate and eye-opening account of her twenty-one day jury sequestration in the 1976 murder trial of a young Black revolutionary charged with the murders of two white Philadelphia prison wardens. More than forty years after Menaker voted to convict Frederick Burton of murder, she tells a devastating story of uncovering how her naiveté and white privilege may have led her to convict a man whose shoes she never could have walked in. Compiled from historical research and Menaker's recollections of growing up and coming of age in a predominantly white world, this memoir spells out the fundamental flaws in our criminal justice system and proclaims one juror's moral imperative to help set things right—nearly a half-century later.

Carol Menaker, author

About the Author

Carol Menaker is a writer and criminal justice reform advocate living in Nevada City, California. She holds a BA in theatre arts/acting from the Pennsylvania State University and an MS in journalism from the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign. She occasionally performs in local community theatre, regularly practices qigong, enjoys travel, and doesn't like to miss her daily walks in the Sierra Foothills near her home. The Worst Thing We've Ever Done is her first full-length work.

Endorsements

Carol Menaker's book is deeply personal and sharply journalistic—taking us to a moment in time that has haunted her and will haunt you…a page-turner that breaks your heart but also gives you hope that each of us may yet summon the courage Carol has to cultivate our own moral compasses and, most importantly, give a damn about equal justice.

Mag Dimond author of Bowing to Elephants: Tales of a Travel Junkie

Haunting, heartbreaking, and unerringly candid, this story invites us all to look at ourselves, our presumptions, and the impact of the choices we make. This is a brave book, and Menaker is a brave author to take it on.

Betsy Graziani Fasbinder MFT, author of Filling her Shoes and host of The Morning Glory podcast

A heartbreaking account of an all-too-familiar story of justice gone wrong. Gripping and superbly written, this is an important book, courageously illuminating the shadow side of our ethos of liberty and equality -- essential reading for anyone interested in justice and racial issues in these challenging times.

Sean Murphy National Endowment for the Arts Fellow in Creative Writing, author of The Time of New Weather

Updates

Teetering between hope and reality.

Last June I Ubered in a red Tesla to Chester Correctional Institution outside Philadelphia for an in-person visit with Muhammed. In stark contrast to Somerset Correctional Institution, where Muhammed spent so many years, inmates at Chester are treated with a kind of respect rarely afforded at Somerset. The difference is palpable as soon as you queue up for security and make your way to the visitors room.

Muhammed is living on a senior block and has become reacquainted with men he served time alongside over the decades in prisons across the state. Not long ago, he told me, they celebrated the 90th birthday of a fellow inmate.

We sat together in the visiting room, shared a plastic container of fruit and cheese from the vending machine, snacked on a bag of microwave popcorn, and circled the room gently holding hands. The photo taken of us there is on my refrigerator and pops up on my Aura digital frame many mornings at breakfast.

My video visits with him and his lawyer's mother continue to be remarkably interesting and fun. Few subjects are off limits. I've come to know Muhammed as a wise, intelligent, loving, and very informed man.

The legislative fight to rewrite Pennsylvania's mandatory life-without-parole (LWOP) sentence for felony murder ended in failure. Despite the Pennsylvania Supreme Court's instruction to the General Assembly to rewrite the law within 120 days, lawmakers could not agree on a replacement. Through a series of complicated maneuvers, advocates who have fought for sentencing reform for more than a decade managed to stop a bill that would have been nearly as punitive as the existing law.

But there is good news. In September, the Pennsylvania Supreme Court agreed to hear the case of Jerome Coffey, a Philadelphia man serving life without parole for a murder committed in 1992. The question before the Court is whether its earlier decision in Commonwealth v. Lee, which struck down mandatory LWOP for second-degree murder, applies retroactively. A favorable ruling could open the door to seeking resentencing for some 1,100 people already serving these sentences in Pennsylvania, even perhaps Muhammed.

When will this happen? How long will it take? Even the lawyers and advocates at the Abolitionist Law Center (ALC), who are leading this fight, can only estimate. The wheels of justice turn at a glacial pace, but they are turning. And the commitment of ALC's team to making this right is nothing short of extraordinary.

I've participated in a number of video calls with hundreds of other family members and friends of people serving LWOP sentences. The chat rooms are on fire with questions for ALC representatives. We are all teetering between hope and reality. What stays with me is the extraordinary love and commitment so many people have for their incarcerated loved ones, despite what so often feels like insurmountable odds.

If you've read my book, please share it with others.

If you live in Pennsylvania, contact your state representatives and ask them to do the right thing.

Support the Abolitionist Law Center, whose efforts to challenge Pennsylvania's carceral state are nothing short of inspirational.

And do as Muhammed tells me each time we talk:

Stay strong.

Freddy Burton's story has not ended. And neither has mine.

In 2023 at the time this book was published, Freddy Burton, now known to me as Muhammed, had spent fifty three years in prison. In that same year, with his son Freddy, Jr., I visited him at the Somerset Correctional Institution in Somerset, PA. It was my first time in a prison and I am grateful to his son, who'd been there from the time he was a toddler, for preparing me for the experience of the gruff guards, body scans, dogs, and rules as I entered the prison.

Since that time, Muhammed and I have visited on Zoom nearly every two weeks. With the persistent efforts of the Abolitionist Law Center he has been transferred to a prison in Chester only a short distance from his family in Philadelphia. The move however has not changed his commitment to being exonerated, and he has filed yet another PCRA petition. A hearing on the petition is scheduled for December 2026. In December, Muhammed will celebrate his 80th birthday.

Last month, the Pennsylvania Supreme Court ruled unconstitutional the mandatory felony murder sentence of life without parole that Muhammed was given so many decades ago. We now wait for the state legislature to create a new law that could free him and up to 1,000 other incarcerated men and women sentenced under that arcane inhumane rule.

I will see him in person again next month and we will enjoy each other's company as friends.